Feeling Terrified

The Friday before Christmas I found out I was pregnant. I wanted to make this so special for my husband because he has made everything so special for me- our engagement, taking over the day of wedding stress so I could try to enjoy it (even though he didn't know at the time I had food poisoning- yes, food poisoning day of my wedding.) Well, today at around 11:45 am I began to have this very intense stabbing pain in my lower left abdomen. It was hardcore. I bawled at work it hurt so bad. I called my doctor's office because my first appointment isn't even for another week. She told me to get to an ER.

So, I went home and picked up my insurance card. My husband was home for lunch so bawling I told him about our baby and ruined the plans I had to tell him. He was so shocked, but he just kept smiling and hugging me.

At the ER they did both kinds of ultrasounds. Basically what they told me is my baby is too small to tell if it's healthy or not. There are still no guarantees my baby will even make it. This is my very first pregnancy. We got married May of 2018. I would be so devastated if something happened to our baby. Now, every little thing is just freaking me out. I'm so worried about my pregnancy now and if we (me and baby) will be okay. I know my husband will love me through even the worst but I just need some encouragement right now. I know stress isn't needed so I'm trying to calm my fears.

(Picture of my tiny little growing human I got to take home today)