Bad mom

I am 8weeks PP. I feel like a bad mom. I know its horrible to say this but I never wanted to do this, I never wanted to be a mom. I got pregnant and my husband wanted a baby so I kept him. This is the HARDEST thing I have ever done. I love my son but I feel like I am in a daily nightmare. All he does is cry all day 😫😫 I am losing my mind! 😪😭 and I dont want to do this anymore.