Insecure over my husband’s ‘special’ dreams

I’m 12 weeks pregnant and feel disgusting for the most part, so my husband and I haven’t touched much at all. For the past couple of nights he’s been getting super turned on (while still asleep) and starts aggressively kissing me all over. Tonight I was actually in the mood and as soon as I started to touch him and kiss his neck and everything, he started to wake up and got turned off???? I gave up and got up to pee and he asked why I started touching him and I was taken aback. I reminded him that he initiated things, and he got all defensive when I asked why he didn’t want to do anything. This same thing happened about two weeks ago too.

I feel very insecure, and I don’t feel like I would normally feel bothered by this type of thing if I wasn’t pregnant. I just feel like he’s either dreaming about other people or the ‘me’ he’s dreaming about is better than the real thing. I feel gross and fat and bloated and im breaking out and keep throwing up, my body image of myself isn’t amazing right now and Im afraid he’s not even attracted to me.