My mom let me down again

Long story short my mother has been a constant disappointment in my life. I love her dearly because she’s my mom but I had to work very hard (with professionals) to accept that she will never be the mother I needed.

Now here I am 22 weeks pregnant and she was supposed to plan my baby shower this weekend (her idea not mine) her best friend has offered to host it and she just had to get in contact with me to confirm dates. All week she didn’t answer the phone (this is typical even when I was a young child) and Friday comes along, I manage to reach her when I’m off work and she’s “in the middle of something” (this is always an excuse) but she will call me tomorrow. Saturday comes along, I reach out and there’s no answer, I wait till Sunday giving her some time to return the call, call again Sunday afternoon, nothing.

I know I should know better but I can’t help to be a little hurt. This is the first grand child and all she had to do was discuss dates so I could take the vacation time (they live away from me) and they were able to plan it.

I don’t want her to be a disappointment in my sons life.

Just needed to vent.