I give up


So my world just feels like it’s turning upside down. My body has been doing crazy things lately. Long story short.... my cycle stays on for months and I’m always in pain. A few months I had to go to the emergency stayed for a week lost over 3/4 body blood no Dr could figure out what was wrong. When 1 did I find out I need surgery, I end up back in the emergency. I have a cyst the size of a soft ball on my ovary and it’s precancerous 🤦🏽‍♀️ to top it off I’m already having trouble the Dr. tells me I might have to remove the whole ovary at this point I just don’t know what to do and my family is not supportive I have been depending on my bf for so much support but lately our relationship has changed. I just feel like everything is going down the toilet at this point. I pray 🙏🏽 over and over again and know I shouldn’t question God but it’s just so difficult and frustrating.