On December 10th, my husband and I went in to have our regular 20 week anatomy scan done for our little girl, and we found out that she no longer had a heart beat and had stopped growing almost a week before. On December 12th, I had a D&E procedure to deliver my sweet angel. (I couldn’t bare to look at her and hold her when I couldn’t bring her home) The doctor told me that she was perfectly developed with 10 tiny fingers and toes. (We got her hand and foot prints done) We were told that the tests they ran on her body showed that she only had two vessels in her umbilical cord instead of three and they believe that it caused a cord accident which took her life.

We picked up her ashes last Tuesday.

I’m still heart broken about losing our daughter, but now all I can think about is trying again. I want a healthy baby that I can hold in my arms so bad.

If you’ve gotten this far in my long post, my question is that, am I horrible for wanting to try again so soon?

How long is a healthy time to wait before trying again?

Help! I’m so lost I feel like I don’t even know which way is up.