my story starts august 6th when i broke my left ankle and sprained my right at the same time. i was in my last 20 minutes of a 3.5 hour gymnastics practice. i had been going to this gym for about 5 months after just moving from my previous one. it hurt so much but i didn’t cry. i don’t like showing weakness, or what i thought was weakness. i wanted to be strong. i’m the oldest girl at my gym, 14, and being sorta new still, i wanted to set an example for the other girls. anyway. it was a very hard time for me. i’m homeschooled, so luckily i didn’t have to put up with that life, but it was also a negative factor. gymnastics was (and still is) the biggest part of who i am, my life, myself, me. everything. and not being able to practice any of the events, only conditioning and stretching as soon as i possibly could, going to practice every day even though i did nearly nothing, it was hard. i’ve officially been back to gym for about 2-3 months now. ever since then, i feel like the universe is conspiring against me, which i know it’s not, but that’s what it feels like. since then, i’ve practiced every event, finally. i had my first meet this season, since i’ve broken my ankle, on january 5th. (i did pretty good btw, better than i or anybody around me expected i think). but for a while now, i can only do a fraction of what i used to be able to, and every few days something hurts. gymnastics is my life. it’s the only thing. i have friends, good ones, close ones, but gymnastics give me meaning. something to work for. and not being able to do it how i know i can is miserable. it hit me very hard tonight, and considering i’m on my period that probably has something to do with it, but it also gave me the idea to post something here. i think it can help someone, and myself. i’m getting through this, and i knew recovery was going to be hard, but i didn’t expect this. i keep asking myself what this part of healing means. what lesson i’m learning right now. i’ll update you guys when i can. anyway if you read up to here you’re either really bored or you really care. either way, thank you so much. i hope this helps someone out there going through something. much love ❤️