Not talking

I’m not talking to anyone on what I’m feeling or think cause what goes through my head makes me feel so guilty. I don’t want anyone to know. I guess you can say it’s my choice but it doesn’t feel like a choice I just can’t talk to anyone. I don’t have the heart to tell them “hey I feel like dying. I don’t want to live anymore. I don’t want to feel this pain.im so fucken tired to the point where I don’t want to fight this anymore” I can’t, so I keep everything inside. It kills me inside. I wish I can just fade away.