My social anxiety is getting the best of me :(

I work in a call center and this is my everyday struggle.

I walk into the office and my eyes seem like they automatically water up.

I walk the long way to my desk to avoid greeting "certain" colleagues

I use the bathrooms that are further away

I look over my cubical every second I hear whispers/ laughter

I make sure nobody is watching me eat while sitting at my desk

I am afraid of getting embarrassed, because I want have a good comeback

I hate small talk

I rather be alone

I feel EVERYBODY at work dislike me & talks about me

My speech is slurred when holding conversations with people I don't usually talk to

This list goes on & on....

How do you cope with this naturally? It's all in my mind, but I want to be normal.