Feeling lost

I have been with my boyfriend for 6 months. And out of work for 4. I have always had depression problems. I get really down sometimes and me not having a job has really put me in a bad spot. Because my boyfriend works, I obviously don't get to see him as much as I'd like, but I understand that you know, he gets home tired and even though he says us hanging out all the time didn't bother him.. I still want to give him his space. Recently, we had a issue where he needed time to himself to figure out some personal stuff, that I do know of, just he needed to deal with them. I recently, like today was able to get a job. I have orientation tomorrow and hopefully start next week.. the thing is I feel like now we really are not going to see each other. And it makes me sad, but I know I need to take this job to help sanity. I can not stay home all day anymore. It's driving me crazy. I don't know if I'm looking for advice, or if I'm just venting.. anyways, thanks for coming to my TED talk 😁