Can’t have a baby and son wants a sister

Maria

Backstory: I have a 4 yr old son and I have had 4 miscarriages and can’t get pregnant.

My son asked me why he doesn’t have a sister. And I explained he doesn’t have one because there isn’t a baby in my belly. He then said if I had a sister you would be proud of her and me. Then he said if I couldn’t have a sister in my belly that we should buy (meaning adopt) him a sister, because he needs a sister to play with because they are the best to play with.

Naturally with my history of miscarriages and wanting to have another child this breaks my heart because I feel like I’m failing at providing him a sibling I so want to give him. My last miscarriage my son was convinced that I was pregnant with a boy. So he talks about the baby (he calls his brother) all the time and how he misses him etc. Just feel all this emotions and needed to tell someone.