It’s been almost 2 years since me and my boyfriend have been together and we also have a child who is about to be 1 years old. So yes, we pretty much got pregnant the second month of dating (wasn’t planned at all) and he helped me get out of an abusive relationship when we first started dating. I thought I fell over heels for him. But then I got pregnant and everything changed. He really didn’t even want our child, he would always ask me to think about the decision of keeping the baby and what it would do to our relationship and life. I didn’t care, I had made my decision when I first saw the two pink lines. There was no way I was having an abortion and I knew that is what he meant because he said no way to adoption, not that I would ever agree anyways. I told him this was the consequences of having unprotected sex and now we have a baby on the way. Plus I knew I would resent him if I would have terminated my pregnancy. It was stressful because we barely knew each other so all that cute stuff went out the window when I was nauseated and sick with low sex drive in my whole first trimester. Second trimester and I was feeling better so we started having sex more than just once a week like in my first trimester but then my hormones were just the worst. One day I wanted to kill everyone while the next day, I wanted to cry all day. He was completely shocked on how I was acting and didn’t really know how to handle it so we started arguing everyday and he thought I was just putting on a front in the beginning of our relationship which I wasn’t. Some days I felt like I could not control myself. So once I gave birth, I thought everything would go back to normal and we would be happy... the first 7 weeks postpartum, I was exhausted and didn’t feel like having sex at all because I wasn’t exactly comfortable either. But he kept pressuring me and was saying things like “why are we in a relationship then?” So we ended up having sex but not a lot because it wasn’t all that great right after giving birth. We still fought everyday and still do now. He is such a wonderful father, he always regrets on how he didn’t want our child when I first found I was pregnant but now he can’t imagine his life without his child. I don’t think I’m in love with him and never was and not sure if I ever will be. I keep telling myself that one day, I will wake up and be in love with him. But honestly if we were to breakup, I would not cry or try to stay or try to get him back, I feel like I would simply not care and actually may be happy about it. I hate feeling that way because this is the first man that has never physically abuse me and now we have a child together and those are the mains reasons that I am not getting up and walking away. I love him and care about him but not in love and it sucks so bad because when you’re with someone, you are to love them to the moon and back and feel that with them feeling the same way back. I wasted my teen years with my ex and I hated that so much because I missed out on going out with friends and having a good time. I’m only into my 3rd year of being in my 20s and I feel like I don’t even want to waste my 20s either. I mean we only get 1 life and I’m tired of wasting it on a man whom I’m not sure I even want to be with. But honestly, I would feel bad because he says all the time he is in love with me and that he would hate for us not to be together especially since we have a little family now and I would hate that my child would grow up in two different households and it would be my fault since I wasn’t in love with their father. Do you think I should stay and eventually will be in love with him one day or do you think I should just leave and stop wasting time? I know it’s dumb to ask people on the internet whom I have never met before but maybe someone has been in my shoes or are now and could give me some advice.... Sometimes I feel like when I broke up with my ex who I was with for 5 years, that I should have just took time for myself and just waited to date anyone but instead, the day I broke up with my ex is the day I got with my boyfriend now....