Insecurities

I’m hoping I can come her to vent without being judged.

I’m also hoping else has been in my shoes and can point me in which direction I need to take.

Since I had my first child my insecurities started. I gained 60 pounds within those 9 months! I went from a fit 120 pound body to 180 pound body. Its been 6 years and I’m about to give birth to my third and last child. I weigh 192 pounds now. I feel so disgusted with myself, like every day. I’m becoming depressed over it all. I’m constantly comparing myself to other people and I know I need to stop for my sake because it’s making me worse but, I just can’t stop. I feel like my husbands no longer into me and it’s breaking our marriage to pieces. He like to pick and make fun that I’m going through this. He constantly throws it into my face, all the time. I feel like he doesn’t love me because I’m not what he fell in love with. I cry every single day, it’s to the point that it’s unhealthy. What can I do? I’m tired of feeling this way. 😔