I tried so much , i cried so much but it still wasn’t enough for him to forgive me and to want a reconciliation

i have 15 months old baby with this boy we been through hell we gone through so much our relationship ended and i don’t think there’s a fix to it and i just given up his daughter will always be his daughter but then i am 7 weeks pregnant with a baby that he doesn’t really even want and I honestly don’t know what to do anymore i personally don’t feel like i can maintain two kids on my own I’m not mentally or emotionally stable for another baby i still live with my parents In a small bedroom that sometimes is uncomfortable for me and my daughter i can’t imagine another baby i really don’t want to have a abortion i already went through the pain and the suffer meant that comes along with it and now to be here again i just can’t i don’t know what to do but all my options are throwing me to it because ok my daughter here already she big I’ve done it alone with Gods help and my mother help but to feel that he isn’t going to help me to feel that pain that he doesn’t care all over again i just can’t i feel so broken so damaged i was hoping he could atleast care even if it’s a Tiny bit but i just know he won’t and he doesn’t

I needed to write this to let the pain out

If i can have a piece of advice thank you 😞