Life.. kinda, read

So, honestly I feel really blank. I have no motivation at all and I hate middle school. I love the people but often feel alone even when I’m surrounded by people. I already have high anxiety and depression and am not necessarily sad but more empty and overall off and on. I take meds but often run late so it’s also off and on. I feel like none of my close friends like me or want to even talk to me. I am way more mature for my age when it comes to dating and what I want and even realizing that I probably won’t have the same friend group when I’m in high school and am older. I can’t wait for it because I personally feel like it will be easier. Opinions? Please send help on improving motivation and emotion:/

I’m also really really really stressed. Any suggestions to fix that would be great..