Was anyone like me in high school? 🚶🏻‍♀️

The other day on Netflix I saw the movie The Edge of Seventeen and hit me hard, I started crying. The main character of this movie total resembled me when I was in high school. I was so shy and only had like 2 main friends. My first friend “lora” I feel like we only hanged in high school because we were both loners so we would have lunch together and sat with each other in the bus but we never have actually had things in common. In fact, once we got off the bus we would said bye to each other but never actually hanged out like at each other’s house or talk on the phone like “ normal friends” do so pretty much we only socialize in school....As for my second friend “ Brenda” we actually did have things in common but she was more social than me. There were many times where I wanted to hang out with her in school but she would be in a little group and I felt like a total out cast👾 It’s hard to explain, when it would just be us, we would have a blast but when her other friends were around, she would kinda put me on the side😔.

Anyways what hit me hard from this movie, was this character lost her only friend and during lunch time she would try to find people to hang out with and ended up hanging out in a empty classroom with her teacher....I remember, before I had my counselor change my lunch schedule to my friend loras lunch schedule, I was like her. Right after chorus class I had lunchtime. But I had exactly no one to have lunch with so what I did was skip going to the cafeteria ( because I didn’t want no one to see me eating alone) and I would just go to Attendance Office ( that was my class after lunch) and just hang there with the receptionists... I remember I would get home very hungry because I wouldn’t eat lunch at school.

When entering high school as a freshman, everyone already had their own friends from previous jr high school. I didn’t.... in jr high school, I got picked on by the girls because I was the new girl that caught the attention from the guys. So not a lot of girls didn’t want to be my friend. Soooo apart from being shy, everyone already had their cliques and apparently no one needed a new member😪

I’m now 27 years old with a husband and a 2year old son. When high school topics come up, my husband sometimes brags about how popular and social he was in his school but I have never told him who I really was in my high school, in a way I feel like I am actually a bit embarrassed for him to know what I would go through and how completely different I am to him.

As an adult now, I am no longer shy and can have a conversation with anyone but I still have no friends🙎🏻‍♀️ but I don’t mind anymore😌 I’m a mom and my son and husband are my world 👪

Idk I just thought I should bring this topic up here just to see if there were others like me in high school... 👩🏻‍🏫