Everything is making me mad

I am just so angry at the world right now... My first day in 6 weeks I don't feel completely drained... I try and get up and do stuff but I can because every 5 mins my lights are cutting in and out... It's pretty windy outside but nothing that would call for this BS... I have no internet access it's going to be getting dark soon and I'm not going to have lights long enough to cook dinner or see anything.... I don't even know the name of my electric company because my husband handles that and guess what he's going? He's working all day and after work going to a funeral for a guy he worked with for a year... I never heard him talk about this guy until he died.... I can't even get ahold of him to get that info! I want to fucking hurt someone I'm so angry... I've been trying to dry the same load of laundry for 5 hours now.... I could split nails I'm so angry.... I think it's hilarious the electric company doesn't forget to send invoices for their service yet they forget to provide it!!! At this point why should I pay for price for lights I get part time! I have lived in a house over 100 years old through a horrible wind storm that tore my garage down and I still had lights through it all... I have been texting my husband all day about this and when he finally replies all he has to say is sorry.... I don't need your damn pity I need these fucking lights to stay on!!! It's why we pay them every damn month!!! I need to calm down because I'm so upset to the point I could take a person's will to live... I hate feeling helpless. I fucking hate being at the mercy of someone else!