I thought things were getting better...
I lost my baby at 22-23 weeks in September, he came too early and was a stillborn😔
I was absolutely distraught. I went back to work 2 days later but I distanced myself from people quite a lot. I cried every night and was heartbroken.
Then things started to get better. It was okay, I could see pregnant women and newborn babies without crying, I started leaving the house more ect. I felt okay. I'd have sad days every now and again but overall i was okay...
BUT NOW, the past 2-3 weeks I've felt rubbish again. I cry at everything! (Even things that aren't sad! I cried at a dance the other day... And an advertisement... Litrally everything!!)
I can't see a baby, toddler, pregnant woman without wanting to breakdown. Im constantly thinking about my son. I even dream about him, remembering how he looked after birth ect.
I just feel so defeated... I miss him so much! I miss being pregnant! I want my baby! I don't know what to do😭