Is it worth it....? 😔

Okay so a little background info about me. I have depression. And I always feel unaccomplished and have episodes of utter sadness. And I guess I also convince myself out of good life situations a lot. So I’m engaged. From the beginning we’ve had our problems. Like he never wanted to have sex. Ever. And it left me feeling very ugly and unsatisfying. (Killed my body image) and I know it was something to do with him and not me but now almost a year later I still feel no sexual desire towards him even though he’s changed and wants to have sex often. Another issue is he wants to be a nurse. I’m a former marine and he’s not a fan of the military or police (idk why) so I kinda put my dreams of being a cop or going back to the military on the back burner. And I applied to nursing school. And I feel like all I do is cook and clean and work and go to school... I literally hate my life. And with going to work 40 hours a week and doing 13 credit hours I literally never see him anyways. We’re so distant I feel like. But will it be worth it later on in life once we’re both nurse practitioners and have children and such? Please give advice because I honestly don’t know what I’m doing anymore... 😭