Excitment to devastation

Today I went into my weekly ultrasound. I was 7w2d and so desperately wanted to hear good news. The doc went quiet called in another doc and confirmed that there was no heartbeat. Baby measured to the day and they said the heart may have stopped beating today :(

This was my 15th pregnancy.....my 13th loss. I have had all possible tests done including genetic testing on my losses. Wednesday I go in for a D&C to do more genetic testing. After we get the results we will sit down with our REI and decide what our best option is.

I am devastated, I am heartbroken but mostly I feel like I failed my husband. I feel like less of a woman.

Grateful to have my two beautiful girls.