No connection 😔

So I feel terrible with saying this, but I don't feel the same connection with this pregnancy like I did with my last one. With my son it was just that constant feeling of "holy crap I'm a mom" (but a good holy crap). I had that instant connection with the little baby growing inside of me. I'm 12w1d with #2 and I don't have that same feeling. It's still not really real I think. And with as many complications I've had so far with this one I don't know if I'm trying to protect myself in case something bad happens. I'm hoping once I get my next scan I'll start feeling that connection.