It cost me to accept it but I been having late night thoughts...

So every time I meet a guy I just lie and lie and make myself a victim with guys. I was going out with this guy, leading him on, and just making excuses to not be in a relationship. There’s this other guy who I just keep getting his hopes up. Idk it just something that comes naturally... (pls don’t judge and give me advice? ) another guy that has a relationship with a kinda friend of mine, started liking me but with him I didn’t intend to I guess he misunderstood that and he thought I was leading him on, but no.. I guess my attitude naturally is flirty??? Idk I always leave a guy hanging and when I want to I start getting their hopes up, they come back and the cycle just goes and just manipulating them, it’s not right and I’ve always asked myself if I’m toxic or idk... advices ,?? I don’t think I need a psychologist, it’s not that deep I think.

( idk maybe this attitude of mine is because of a bad break up I had Long time ago which I still remember how bad they did me)