Numb💔

The title says it all. That is it. I can’t feel anything. I’ve lost half of my family (within my house) in less than 3 months. I went from a family of 4 to a family of 2. First loss was a sudden unexpected one. Second was just today, but I had a little warning. He had not been doing well since the first loss and it just became too much. I’ve been trying to get him help for 2 months but it didn’t work. Now half of my family is gone. I want to scream, I want to cry my eyes out. I can’t do either. I get some smiles from what’s left of my family, but not as much as I used to. All I want to do is sleep. I can sleep 12+ hours and still feel exhausted. When will any of this get better? 💔💔