So anxious now that I’m pregnant again!

I know you’re not supposed to compare lines that are less than 48 hours apart, but since I got my first vvvvfl last night and more clear ones this afternoon, I keep taking more (cheap strip) tests and freaking out that they’re still pretty faint. I’m so paranoid about having a chemical, even though my last loss was at 7 weeks and my test was nice and positive when AF was due. I don’t know if I’m extra anxious because I found out really early or if I would be like this no matter what (I actually have anxiety, clinically, which certainly doesn’t help). There’s also a strong possibility that we aren’t going to keep trying if we have another loss, so there’s so much riding on this one sticking.

For those of you who have had a pregnancy after mc already, how did you relax? I had another miscarriage 12 years ago, but then my last healthy pregnancy 3 years ago started out at high risk for miscarriage for separate reasons, so my long-past mc was really the last thing on my mind. This time with the loss so recent, I feel like I’m just going to be a mess the whole time!