I am currently in a marriage where I am soooo unhappy. My husband is the biggest manipulator I know. He always makes me feel like I’m wrong about everything. I know your asking well why don’t you leave ? The answer is because he supports me 100 percent financially I don’t work and j have a 9 year old son to think about I don’t have any family that can help if i did I would’ve left already. I don’t know what to do anymore. He’s constantly taking his phone everywhere I do know the passcode though but I’m scared to find something g I don’t want to see or know about. It’s like I’m lying to myself but at the same time I do want to know also I have a lot of insecurities and I feel is because of him when we would go out we would constantly look at other females and then lie and make me feel like I’m some psychotic person. I don’t even know why I even got married I’m so miserable I feel like I don’t even want to live anymore the only reason why I’m still here is because of my son. Cuz I think about what’s going to happen to him if I die or do something stupid. I do have a car that’s in my name and money in my account saved up what should I do? I’ve heard of dv shelters but I’m scared I also don’t have proof of when he has hit me I never call the police because he always breaks my phone and I can’t get an apt because I believe my record is fucked up because we have left Apts before. And broke leases etc he tells me that he wants to make it work and that he loves and cares about me but I am just not happy anymore I don’t know if I should check his phone tonight?? Should I??