Ok so here it goes ... I have been seeing this guy for about a year now and when I met him I fell in love he was different from all the rest of they guys I have been with he had a good job, his own place, older (thinking more mature), motivated etc. anyways I fell for this guy and he was so sweet to me then we hooked up and he took me out on a couple of dates then he kind of became real short with me in conversations and at the point I feel like he just got what he wanted.

I still continued to speak with him but when I tried he was short with me but when he wanted to “hook up” he would blow up

My phone for me to come over.. let’s fast forward so we got into a Lil altercation which prompted him to remove me from fb. Then after about a week everything blew over and we started talking again we hooked up and then one weekend after hooking up I noticed that my messages to him were not being delivered (iPhone) u can see when messages are delivered and if they are not it means u are blocked so I’m in my messenger on fb and I see his profile on there and the picture changed so I look at his profile and it’s of him and some girl.. I got upset but didn’t say anything to him (I bottle things up) so then he messages me and I go to his house next morning while we were in his bed we start talking and he asked me if I saw his profile picture and I told him that I did and he asked me why I didn’t say anything about it I shrugged and said “it’s none of my business” I honestly couldn’t think of what to say because we were not in a relationship at this point I was honestly letting it just play by ear. And then I asked him “well since you brought it up who is she” and he said “kind of my gf” 🙄 I was broken and I found out without him telling me that he had been with this girl for about 4 years and we were going on about 6 months of talking and hooking up. She is 24 and he is 37..

I knew it was wrong to continue with him and at some point in our time together he did make it clear that he just wanted to be fuck buddies but didn’t make that clear until later on after I had already caught feelings and I didn’t want to let him go so dumb to think that maybe one day just one day he would have the same feelings.. I should’ve walked away a long time ago.. he even told me that if I didn’t have kids he would’ve “wifed me up already”.. for a while I wanted to tell his gf and just be free of him but I had mixed feelings sometimes I wanted to keep him close and sometimes I wanted to just let go and I felt like she did deserve to know.. and I also found out that me and her are not the only ones

Fast forward to this week.. so Sunday he wanted me to go to his house and canceled then Monday he wanted me to go to his house and canceled them Tuesday came and same thing he wanted me to go to his house and by that time I was upset that he canceled on me and told him I would let him know by the afternoon but before afternoon came I thought we made an agreement that I would go to his house around 9 pm so I get out of work and get a message from him that I didn’t let him know so he made “other plans” I then asked him if he can cancel those plans and he said “I’m gonna be with my gf” mind you he had told me for the last couple of months that he no longer has a gf... I got sooo angry and I had it I was just done so I messaged his gf no longer gf honestly didn’t even know what it was and I told her everything she asked for proof I gave it to her and I even sent her a video of us that he recorded without me knowing he recorded it and sent it to me..

The next day after sending the info to her and talking to her which she was very calm about it.. I didn’t hear anything from him but a “come over tonight” and then later that evening he called me yelling at me outraged telling me that he never thought I would do that and that I was a snake and he thought I was such a sweet girl that he knew I had feelings for him and that I wanted more but he didn’t want anything but to fuck and he knew we could never be more.. that he cared for her and that they really were broken up but still talking and that she loved him and I ruined it now she will never speak to him again .. he begged me to give him details on what I told her what I sent.. he said he trusted me with the videos and pics he sent..

He blocked me from everything told his sister and his sister called me telling me I was a piece of shit for doing that and that was fucked up blah blah blah and then told me “watch when I see you” then she hung up on me. His whole family knew what he was doing..

I know what I did was wrong for me to let myself put up with that and if he would’ve been straight up with me for the beginning about having a gf I would’ve never given it a chance.. I fell in love with him I wanted more from it.. what really hurt is he admitted knowing how I felt about him and basically used me knowing that.. I snapped I bottled everything up and did what I did out of impulse and beat myself up over it because I hurt him and her.. hearing the hurt in his voice killed me and what is really messed up is he has no regards for my feelings but I care that I hurt him in this.. idk I am so hurt but I feel

Like this had to be done to get away because it was hard for me to just walk away