Don't know what to do..

I've always been depressed since i was 12years old. But its gotten worse over the years now 23 and I've tried suicide last year,i was diagnosed with MDD,its hard because my husband says i don't need meds to make me right..but in reality nothing does..i feel so alone and so unwanted 😟 had my very first miscarriage and im crushed..the only reason im holding on is because of my kids but its hard..no one understands it's an everyday battle 😢