Ugh the first trimester is the worst

I’m having anxiety so bad because my symptoms keep subsiding and coming back; we had a miscarriage this time last year and it literally took a year to get pregnant again and I cannot go through that again. I have my first prenatal on Wednesday so I’m trying to hold out until then but it’s hard.

I had a panic attack this morning at 4am because I couldn’t notice any symptoms, which is literally absolutely ridiculous of me 🙄

But ugh hopefully 5 more weeks flies by 😭