Just need to rant

I don’t know what’s going on with me. I never really had a problem meeting guys who at least didn’t make me feel like shit even if it wasn’t serious, but ever since I moved to a new city my love life has gone to shit. First guy I kissed then proceeded to sexually assault me, have a huge crush on the second guy, we hooked up a couple times but he’s in love with a guy friend of mine. Third guy I kiss actually had a girlfriend the entire time and naturally she’s a girl from my drama group who I’ve grown to like a lot. She found out and now everyone from the group hates me even though I had no clue.

So, all the guys I’m interested in are either assholes or couldn’t give less of a shit about me.

Meanwhile, basically every guy I appreciate and want to be friends with at one point or another shows that he’s interested in me for more and it just kills me cause I’m so much better with guy friends than girl friends and when I notice someone likes me and I don’t like them, I just turn into a bitch so they’ll stop liking me. It’s a reflex, can’t stop it. I dont know what to do lol. I’m so frustrated, why can’t I just find someone to be happy with? Especially now that my depression’s getting worse again I just really wish I had a shoulder to cry on and someone to cuddle with me at night so I won’t be so lonely when I wake up after a nightmare. But no, I’m apparently allergic to guys who care about me.