Fml, I want this to end.

So from the beginning I’ve hated my OB, she’s just awful. But I stuck with it hoping I’d get lucky and the other doctor would be on call the day I deliver my baby... well, I toured labor and delivery, come to find out 28 weeks in I’m just learning that they don’t offer epidurals, which was my plan with this one as it made my experience with my first much more enjoyable. So I’ve pretty much made up my mind I’m changing hospitals... THEN, the latest development, I just got diagnosed with gestational diabetes, they can’t get me into endo for two weeks and say I’m lucky I didn’t have to wait two months (by that time I’d be 2 weeks away from my due date, if I’m even still pregnant) with very little direction on what I should be doing to manage the diabetes for the next two weeks until a doctor can see me... the OB literally just told me to stay away from sugar, potatoes, pasta and rice and called that good enough.

I’m so over this pregnancy, I regret ever getting pregnant... this has so far been the worst experience of my life. I’m miserable, mentally, emotionally, physically... I’m just sick of it.

**Update**

My SO glared at me, making snarky comments (jokingly of course) until I finally called the OB in the next city over, I even called their labor and delivery department to make sure epidurals were common practice there... they are... I’m going there tomorrow morning to sign my release forms and they’re going to request my records as soon as I sign. They said I shouldn’t feel the way I do and they’ll do everything reasonable my make the remainder of my pregnancy more enjoyable.