So my husband has always suffered from severe depression. He has been in the National guard for 9 years now I believe. He loves it was always signing up for extra trainings and wanted to be in until he could retire from it. Well 2 years ago he was at an over seas mission and badly injured his leg. It took the military 9 months from injury to get him the needed surgery. He had the surgery over a year ago and his condition has worsened. He has chronic pain, weakness, and instability. Well today the military had a big phone conference meeting with him where they decided to start the process of medically discharging him. This is super stressful on us financially bc we will be left without the income from drill and no longer have affordable insurance.

My biggest concern is tonight we had the following conversation.

Me- you know everything happens for a reason. Your units up for a deployment next year what if the universe made this happen so you didn’t deploy bc if you did you wouldn’t have come back

Him- yea I would rather that have happened

Me- no I mean like didn’t come back like died....

Him- yeah well at least if I would have fought for my country and died our kids could have someone to admire and be proud of now they just have a broken dad who couldn’t cut it

I seriously don’t know what to do with him. I’m currently suffering postpartum anxiety and being seen by my doctor for that and now I am terrified to leave him alone and I hate that he feels this way. He has no intention of telling anyone of his upcoming discharge so I know he isn’t talking to me or anyone else about his feelings about this. Idk what to do for him part of me wants to tell his command of his comment but I don’t want to make things worse for him. 😢 I know he is really depressed and I really worry about him.