I’m so upset

I wish I could fucking go back and change things

I hate myself

I wish I could go back and say things I wanted to say

I should’ve fucking told you I wanted a relationship when I knew..I hate myself

I don’t fucking speak up

I wish I would’ve told you sooner..

I wish I never met you

I wish I never had sex with you

Ugh I fucking hate myself..

I always ruin everything

I wish I didn’t act/react to certain things the way I did

Ugh I really do wish I could go back and change things

I hate myself

I’m currently crying

I’m so upset

I’m so stupid

Edit- Pretty sure it was all my fault, I know it was. I hat myself I always ruin everything..I made him lose interest, I had sex with him (which I was fine with because I didn’t know what I wanted smh I shouldn’t have had sex with him those 3 times or even the first night we met😒) then I caught feelings and wanted something more.. but I made him lose interest so he didn’t want to be with me..😞😞 all he wanted was sex..