I am a 19 year old college student and have the skyla IUD. This last Saturday I found out I was pregnant and I’m simply not ready financially, emotionally, or physically to have a baby. I don’t even think I ever really want kids. Me and my boyfriend decided long before this that if this ever happened that we would terminate the pregnancy.

I went to my local planned parenthood today and they made me an appointment for my pre labs for next week. I have no one but him to talk to about it and it’s just been really hard. I am SO emotional and I cry everyday just from the stress of it all. It makes it 10x worse that I want to tell my mom or dad so badly but I know they are against it and fear about how they’d react. I also don’t want to tell a lot of my friends because I want to keep it to myself and don’t want anyone to know.

I have no idea how far along I am. My last period was January 25 2019. I missed my period in February but thought I may of skipped it because of the IUD. I took 2 other pregnancy tests a week and 2 weeks ago and they were negative and then Saturday and yesterday I took multiple

and they were all positive.

I don’t know if I should get the medical v the surgical either. Medical seems less invasive but I read horror stories and don’t know if I am strong enough to be in that much pain. Especially because I work for my dad and if I’m sick and bleeding puking etc I don’t know what I’ll say. Surgical seems better just because I can wake up and it be completely over with. But it’s invasive and when I read threads about scarring and infections it scares me (idek if that is true or if people post that just to scare girls from getting abortions). I am literally just a dumb kid myself and have NO IDEA what I am doing. It has just been so scary and awful to think “I’m pregnant right now” and just can’t wait till it is all over and my life is back to normal.

Also, at Planned Parenthood today they told me that since I have an IUD it is likely that the fetus is in my Fallopian tubes instead of the Uterus and if I get it taken out that I will likely have a miscarriage. My boyfriend suggested just going to my OBGYN and doing that instead of paying a lot of out of pocket money to pay for an induced one.

If anyone has had any similar experiences, IUD or no IUD, deciding surgical v medical, or just advice or positive thoughts they could give it would be AMAZING. 💗

Also, please just don’t even bother commenting if you are going to try to convince me not to get an abortion or what I am doing is wrong.