Just feeling super upset rn and need someone

I’ve recently been crying evernight and feeling super sad. Its been going on for 2 years that I’m never happy anymore. But just this past few months I’ve been crying a lot and some weeks I cry every night.

Tonight it was because my ex boyfriend who is my friend told me he would talk to me yesterday and forgot so I texted him and asked him why he never messaged me when he said he would and he said sorry he forgot and that he would call me tomorrow. But then again today I reminded him and asked him if he was going to call me today later and he said yes but never called me. So I’m feeling really down about that because I’m pretty sure that means he doesn’t care unless I’m overreacting.Ive been getting mostly upset about him these past 2 years Bc we broke up but I’m also upset about so many orher things and I also get upset for no reason but I don’t know whats actually wrong and it’s hurting me a lot. I just feel lonely and idk if I should be mad at him or not or I’m just a ball of sad. I’ve never felt so sad in my life and it won’t go away and everything hurts me a lot.

I’m also just not sure what to do about my ex and our relationship as friends.