BPD disgnosis..

So i was diagnosed with bpd.. and ontop of that, severe depression and anxiety. My self harm has become really bad recently.. i use it as an act of coping.. taking out my anger.. and pretty much whenever i feel stressed.. yesterday was a great day but today has been awful. Me and my husband had some disagreements and ever since then hes been so horrible.. usually hes so understanding but today he kept telling me to shut up.. to move.. he told me that im using my diagnosis as an excuse to be a bitch.. hes just been non stop horrible.. at this point we're out shopping.. he walked away from me and i ended up self harming.. i wanted to die.. he makes me feel shit.. i cried in the middle of the store.. even now hes shouting at me telling me to put my issues aside and deal with kids.. let alone does he know hes the reason I feel like this..