My past

Throughout my high school years, I had quite the single, "promiscuous" type of lifestyle. I've always been okay with that because I learned to make peace with my past and the things I did wrong.

I am now 19 and have this amazing boyfriend who I love so very much.

The thing is any time he asks me about a past guy, most of the time the answer is we either made out, hooked up, something like that. And it makes him feel bad in a way, which I completely understand.

I try to never ask about his past because I know it'll only make me jealous and hurt me and, besides, I don't *need* to know, you know? He's with me, so why would I care about who he was with prior?

Anyways, when he reacts like that it makes me feel really guilty. Sort of like "perhaps if I wouldn't have done so many things this wouldn't be happening", but, then again, I was single.

I don't wanna feel guilty about my past. It's part of who I am, but I also don't want him to feel bad. I know there's nothing I can do to change whatever happened (even if I could, I wouldn't), but I don't wanna get to a point where I stop telling him stuff because of shit like this, you know?