Body issues

Does anyone else feel like your body is so far from what it used to be you’ll never get it back? This is baby 3 and I’m the biggest I ever have been. I was under 200lbs my last pregnancy and gained so much weight over the last two years. I’m now over 260lbs. I don’t know how to get positive about myself and make the right choices. So scared to look at myself after birth because then I will have no excuse to be so big.