It makes me feel alone..

Long story short I dated a guy a year back. (Let’s call him joe) And then I met joes best friend (let’s call him James) and I met him and after me and joe were thru months later I started liking James. And joe and James sort of drifted apart.

I dated James for a bit but then due to really personal issues I broke up with him. I started talking to joe recently and began redeveloping feels for him. He told me he was still in love with me and he couldn’t have me.

Fast forward from there to now..

Late last night we were idrk? Sexting..

We aren’t in a relationship we just have I guess you could say “a thing” idk.

Then I asked him if he would go out with me and he said no.

He said he likes how things are now and didn’t want to wreck them. He said no also because o dated James.

I instantly felt like I was over loving someone more than they did for me, once again.

I really felt like a dumb*ss, like I was a wh*re..

I have dated two guys who are sort of still best friends. Joe also said he wants to date for later in the future. He said there’s no difference between now and later.

It hurt me because I might have to move soon to and end new high school somewhere else.

I wish I could remove them both from my life permanently and hope they forget about me.

Because once again I’ve made a fool out of myself. I just feel alone and don’t know what to do. I know I’m a terrible person. Leave feedback please. (Also should I just move on from joe?)