Unhappy with my marriage

I’m 23. I’ve only been married a little under 2 years..

I feel like ever since I’ve gotten married I’ve been unhappy and have this regretting feeling.. I was 21. And I feel just over two years I’ve changed a lot as a person and almost feel like my husband and I are going different ways in life and I don’t want the things he wants. He is literally the sweetest husband and would do absolutely anything for me and I feel so terrible that I’m unhappy with him. But I’m always irritated. Don’t feel sexually attracted to him. We barely kiss.. Everything he does absolutely annoys me.

He grew up in a very religious home. He has a good relationship with God. I on the other hand, could be better. He doesn’t drink. I do. He hates going out with people. I love it. He is very traditional old fashioned person. I am very open minded non judgmental. He is VERY judgmental of many things. Sometimes I’m even scared to say my opinion because he always has a rude comment.. he knows I hate that about him. And he’s tried to improve but then we always find another things to argue about..

it’s constant bickering. His family would flip about a divorce. They’re very conservative christian people and that’s just not an option in their eyes..

He’s really close with his family and I’m not really. I feel like we kind of have two separate worlds when it comes to our family’s..

I’ve always wanted to move away from where we live. He wants to stay forever and have a family and have cows and do small town stuff that I just don’t see myself doing anymore.... I want to live somewhere else. See new things and experience different things.

He’s had his entire life planned from day one.. knew what he wanted to do growing up grew up and became it. That’s his life . I am completely opposite. Have absolutely no idea what I want as a career long term. I just love travel and all things summer time.. he doesn’t always support me when I say crazy things like I wanna go back to school or go to dental school because that will “ruin our future”.... and I feel like I never had a chance to become my own person. I literally built my life around him. We’ve been together since we were 17.

I constantly feel like I can’t even be myself.

I love this man but so much has changed within two years and I just don’t know what to do. How do you know if you still love somebody or how do you know what to do????

I’ve felt STUCK for so long.

But I just don’t know what to do