help .. struggling 17 y/o

so i struggle trying to finger myself because it just hurts so bad. i rub outside around my clit but it gets boring after awhile... anyone else close their legs tightly together and even orgasms doing that??? or is it just me... also i’ve attempted fingering myself like more than 5 times and i either dont feel anything but just the presence of my fingers / it stings like hell... please help a girl out :,( these youtube tutorials aint for shit tbh......