I was diagnosed with a possible blighted ovum at my 7 week appointment. They made me an appointment two weeks later to confirm and decide on the route we would take.

The day before my appointment I woke up around 11 am to a small gush but ignored it and catnapped until my husband brought me breakfast (10/10 best hubby).

After eating I checked with my finger bc I had a feeling it may be more than discharge and my fingers were covered in dark red blood.

I knew what was coming and told my husband that we were going to the hospital soon.

I showered, used the restroom, and got dressed, called my teenage brother and his girlfriend to come watch my daughter until her grandparents came for her bc school had let out early, went to burger king and bought them nuggets, came back and then went tk the hospital.

By the time I got there and checked in I was in what felt like early labor, it was so painful but not enough that I couldn't just breathe through it.

That was at 2.

From 2 until 4 the pain got increasingly worse and it felt like full on contractions and I was in intense pain to the point I just started pushing to release the tension and push the blood out.

After a couple big pushes at around 4 I passed this.

Empty sac with the placenta still attached, all at once.

The hospital was so slow and they left me alone in the room so I had time to pick ot up with the wipe, place it on napkins and then a glove bc it was bleeding through, and to poke and prod and check it out for about an hour and a half.

Definitely no baby in there, which made it kind of easier.

As soon as I passed the sac I was in no pain anymore and minimal bleeding.

Today I have only needed one pad (but I've used a few bc i hate wearing one that long regardless) and probably could have gotten away with using panty liners.

I was lucky and passed everything at once with no issues or damage to my body and at my appointment today was cleared to start trying as soon as I feel comfortable.

I'm going to track my hcg using home tests to know when i finally get a negative before we start to try again, but my doctor was very hopeful and I am trying to be too.

I feel like maybe I'm too okay with this.

I'm not happy about it by any means, but I had two weeks to mourn and accept what was coming and while seeing newborns and pregnant women in the waiting room made me cry and the fact that I get a twinge of sorrow and an ache for a full womb when I think about it, I'm really doing okay.

I am comforted knowing that it wasn't my fault, it just happens and it's unlikely it will happen the same way again and that now I'm actually more fertile for about 6 months so maybe we'll get what we're wanting.

My husband has been so supportive and loving and open with me through it all and I think that's something that helps a lot too.

Idk, is what I'm feeling normal?