Just some things I wanted to get off of my chest.

Hey Everyone,

So before I start I want everyone know that I’m not posting this to make anyone feel down. And I’m not looking to be bashed for my feelings. I just didn’t know where else to go. And I know a lot of you here have had some of the same feelings that I have. So please, try not to judge me. And if you do, please don’t comment it.

Here goes,

My husband and I have been trying for a while now and it just hasn’t happened. I know there are women here who’s a lot more older than I am and have been trying longer. (Sending prayers and baby dust your way) I’m feeling defeated and in all honesty. I’m losing hope. My husband is fairly young however he’s been having problems with keeping it up or even staying in the mood in general. All month he’ll be ready to go, but as soon as its crunch time his problem gets worse. So then he makes me promises, “I promise we’ll have a baby” or “ I promise it’ll work this time” and so on and so forth. Now, we’ve been together for years and he’s always had this problem but it never caused that big of a problem until now. I dislike when he makes me promises (the ones where he’s telling me we’re going to actually BD) and then he doesn’t keep them and I know it isn’t always his fault, but don’t tell me were going to try if we aren’t. You know? I love my husband and I can’t imagine a breath without him. I’m just so torn up about it. Because one month we actually got into trying really heavy and it just didn’t happen. This month, I didn’t want to try. But them he told me that he wanted to and when I agreed, he didn’t come through. So then I just keep getting let down. And I try to make him feel okay about it. But then he’ll pretend it never happened. I just don’t know.

What do you all think?