Losing your virginity

I was wondering if anyone could help me out ... my boyfriend and I both want to have sex but I'm not that confident with my body and also I've been noticing that I dont orgasm when I finger myself but I only orgasm when I rub my clit ... I know I shouldn't fake an orgasm but I might have to if I dont rub my clit during sex. Can anyone help me out? Is it normal to not feel pleasure/orgasm when only fingering and not rubbing the clit?