Feeling like I'm slowly losing more and more of myself

Lately Ive noticed that its harder and harder to make myself happy, I'm finding that I dislike myself more and more, my family treats me terribly, I do have my friend and her family, and my boyfriend, but I feel so bad burdening others with myself and with it being a long distance relationship I don't get to see him often right now, there are so many things falling on me and I can't do much about them, I just wish I was better, I want to finally be alright..