Alil FTM transgender help

Ok I'm trans (FTM) I haven't had any modifications yet but will when I save up enoph, i was woundering if anyone could help out with how i can have sex with my partner and not feel so nasty about how I look ( my partner is Male and bi ) I'm also looking for ways to look more manly as well if anyone knows of anything.

( this is me lol I know bad pic)

( I have such bad problems with my breast and butt I try to lose weight but my butt just keeps getting bigger)