im 32 weeks pregnant (planned by me and my boyfriend who i am absolutely in love with).

lately i just feel so stroppy and bitchy and i cant help it i just keep flipping out qnd after i feel so bad. im so lucky really because i mean last night i was violently sick everywhere in the bathroom and he came upstairs to see if i was alright and told me to go back to bed and he cleaned it up for me and then brought a towel and bucket up with a litre bottle of water. ive never had anyone do that for me.

i always look at him and think how tf did I get so lucky?! i dont understand it? i dont feel like i deserve him, im so scared hes gonna leave me 😭 ik he wont but im scared hes not gonna want me anymore because of how i am being but i cant help myself im just so irritable and annoyed by everything lately!

what if i am loosing feelings? because i spoke to him a few days ago crying incase i dont feel the same because i keep

getting annoyed it might mean that and dont feel like i deserve him. like idk whats making me feel like that? i just dont see our future as vividly and maybe its coz his stepdad made a comment like “i give you guys 2 months after the babies born if youkeeep bickering” and i feel kinda numb emotionally.

but at the same time the idea of me having to leave him or the idea of him not being there makes me wonna burst into tears, i cant stnd even being away from him for more than a day. and i always want his effection etc.

i dont get it, i mena im always looking at him and i just wonna kiss him a million times and id honestly rather he hurt me than i hurt him thats how much he means to me. i dont even look at other guys, like my other half is VERY overweight and when people make comments to me i get so angry because thats my baby and i love him exactly how he is, fat/skinny/poor/rich whatever x

what is wrong with me? am i loosing feelings? is it hormones? insecurities? why do i have this wierd feeling i cant put a finger on ??! pleade help the idea of not being able to be with him is my worst fear.

edit: i knoe this sounds disgusting but i feel kinda less enthusiastic and affectionate towards our baby aswell. idk whats wrong eith me 😭😭