Just need to vent...

Let me start by saying breastfeeding is going very well for me and I'm so beyond grateful to be able to feed my lo this way. I love the bond we are making, and I feel proud of myself for sticking with it through the tough first weeks. I don't plan to stop any time soon.

However...

I've started to just feel chained down... I'm on leave and I know housework and other obligations should (and are) take a back seat to baby. My husband helps where he can (even getting up at 3am to change diapers when he has to be up at 5am for work). He's been so supportive and I'm lucky to have him. But I spend so much time in my recliner each day with my baby on my boob that sometimes I don't even feel human. I try to take time for myself (short trips out and about; I pump as well so hubby can give a bottle if needed), and I miss my lo if I'm out for more than a couple hours. But sitting here, watching the sun rise, listening to the birds wake up, nursing my baby, and just wanting to be in bed asleep, I can't help but to crave a slice of normalcy. I hate myself for wishing this time away. I know I'll miss it when it passes. But dang, I was not prepared for this side of breastfeeding...

Anyways, just needed to vent to someone who might understand. Hopefully if there's someone else out there feeling this way too they know they aren't alone.