Struggling with anxiety/overthinking

I seem to be struggling a lot lately with anxiety and overthinking things. My partners a really good support network but I’m even pushing him away, I can see myself doing this but can’t seem to stop it. My ex partner had mentally abused me and I think half of what I’m going through is part of my past! I got to work and just sobbed my heart out to my colleague and she was amazing, I’m thinking of trying an anti depressant or anti anxiety meds. What are people’s experiences of being on meds? I’ve tried battling without them for years but I just want to begin to feel normal again!