I think about my sexual assault sometimes

I was raped when I was 19, and I’m 22 now. I’ve been to therapy to help me and it helped me immensely. There are moments when I think about that night and what led up to it. I was heavily intoxicated and he was loving on me and touching me, and at one point got rough with me and when I told him to stop and he was hurting me, he wouldn’t stop. The next morning we wake up, and for a majority of the morning he’s loving on me and talking to me as if nothing happened. Me confused and unsure of what was going on I went along with it, because for some reason it felt normal even though I knew something wasn’t right. I just wonder sometimes, I got back and forth if I was raped. I blame myself sometimes and part of me feels like it was my fault. I did report it, but it was too long after and I just wonder if anyone would’ve really believed me or stood for me for what happened to me