LADIES. PLEASE. HELP.

let me give you some back story to start this off. in august of 2018 my boyfriend got a new job, where he would start working 12-16 hours a day so we stopped having sex as frequently because he worked midnights and he wasn’t home when i was (i was working at a bank at this point) so it just died down a bit, but then it got really bad. like not having sex on the weekends. then he got into a car accident and totaled his car and then he eventually quit his job because he literally had no way to get there. i got really excited because we were going to spend more time together and this gave him the opportunity to get a job with better hours so he didn’t have to worry about working midnights anymore. i thought “we are going to start having sex more and it’ll be fun and he will act like he’s attracted to me again”. little did i know that was not going to happen. so from Dec 23rd-ish all the way until early February 2019 he didn’t have a job. we were fighting all the time about money because i couldn’t pay everything with the house along with all my other bills. (we live together and have since before everything got bad). still at this point we weren’t having sex except once a week or once every two weeks. keep in mind i am 20 and he is 19. we should be having a lot more sex than that. it was really hurting me because i thought “he isn’t attracted to me anymore” so i kept asking and asking why he wasn’t having sex with me. every time i touched his penis or sucked it, he did not want to have sex. he would literally push me off of him and yell at me. at this point i was going out on the weekends with my roommate because there was no reason for me to stay home if all we were gonna do is sit around and watch movies. one night i came home from the club at 3 am it was in march or april of 2019 in my drunken state he told me why he wasn’t having sex with me. THIS MAN WAS JACKING OFF TO MY NUDES WHILE I WAS GONE. WHETHER IT BE AT THE CLUB OR AT A FRIENDS IF I WAS NOT HOME HE WAS JACKING OFF MORE THAN ONCE. he said sex was too tiring and i took too long to cum or get off even at all. now we’ve been together for a year and six months (so our relationship is still new and fun or at least it’s supposed to be) and all we do is fight. everyday. please tell me if one of you has been through this. i have so many trust issues from him lying to me for so long and he says that he was embarrassed, but i never gave him a reason to be embarrassed, all i wanted was the truth. i told him i wouldn’t be angry or upset or anything, i just wanted to know and he always said “i don’t know”. and it sucks that he cared more about being embarrassed in front of someone he is supposed to share everything with than how much he was hurting me.